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Time to bite the bullet. This has been hanging out for a bit now, waiting for me to stop waffling. Once upon a time, [profile] docmichelle asked for NCIS and the positive qualities of tea. Um, this is... kind of that. Oops. If it's any consolation, the last line came first.

See, I started out being hesitant to post it because it's a new fandom, and I couldn't stop tweaking all the words, and I worry about having the characters down, etc., etc. And then I stumbled onto this, which is strong and brilliant and has a few things in common with the following fic.

But... I kind of like this one anyway, and if it doesn't go up soon, it will be Jossed at birth. So, in the interests of halting my own circuitous mental pacing, I'm putting it out there.

And yes, that is a lot of whining for something less than 1,000 words.

Fandom: NCIS
Rating: G
Pairing: Gen, although I'm convinced they're all a little bit in love with each other
Spoilers: Twilight, Kill Ari, Hiatus
Summary: There are only two people he can have this conversation with, and Abby is busy tonight.

Notes: If you read this and think, Gee, that's almost familiar... you're probably thinking of this story, which you should go read. I solemnly swear that this can be chalked up to the hive mind, and that I did not come across that one until this had already been fully written. If you happen to like this one, thank [personal profile] enname, who told me to stop wibbling and post it already.


Vintage



He’s alone with the darkness and the clink of ice in a glass. He doesn’t count the boat.

“Stop it.”

“I think I’m entitled.” He tilts the glass back and rolls a cube over his tongue. “And… why?”

She stands on the stairs, arms crossed and head tilted, and gives the glass a meaningful nod. “Your method acting needs work. He would be drinking something harder.”

He doesn’t have anything to say to that, and takes another drink instead. It’s been soda for a month now. He can’t afford to be distracted. “You’re wearing too many clothes,” he mumbles against the rim.

She sighs and watches her skirt shift in a breeze less real than she is. “I thought the Marilyn look was a good compromise, personally.”

He shrugs and lets his eyes linger on her knees. “It’s a classic, even if you aren’t going all the way with it.”

She glares. “You got to blow my skirt up last time, Tony, and don’t think –“

After so long, the innocent look is like breathing. “I meant the hair. You’d look good as a blonde.”

She’s not buying it, but then, she wouldn’t. “Even McGee never went that far, and trust me, he’s almost as bad as you.”

“Ah, Probie. He does me proud.” He’s smiling when he lifts the glass, and not when he lowers it. He’s always been good at telling the truth sideways.

She wanders down the stairs and across the floor, runs light fingers over smooth-planed wood. He watches those fingers, although he’d rather not. He can dress the rest of her up in a thousand costumes, but he can’t hide the familiarity of her careful, capable hands.

“He’s coming back.” He’s very good at keeping only what he wants in his tone.

“Of course.”

That brings him around sharply. “You think so? Some mojo from the great beyond?”

“Nope. I’m just an optimist.”

He’s tired enough to not catch himself. “You died, Kate.”

She nods easily. “Exactly. After that, anything looks brighter.” Her smile is wry.

He laughs a little brokenly and rubs his neck, closing his eyes a moment against the burn.

“She was never meant to sail, you know.” She’s still stroking the wooden ribs, gently, voice pitched to match.

He snorts. “Tell me about it. Won’t fit through the door. Been trying to figure out what to do with it when the taxes come due.”

She shakes her head, not looking at him. “She wasn’t going to take him away. He built her to keep him here.”

His fingers tighten around the glass. “That worked well.” The next ice cube grinds satisfyingly between his teeth. “Maybe I’ll burn it.”

“No, you won’t.”

“Nah. He’d kick my ass.” Which is a point in that plan’s favor, when he thinks about it. It’s hard to ass-kick from across the border.

“So will I. He was going to name her after me.” It's the same old angry-tease in her voice. Her eyes are on him, though, too much knowledge and not enough levity.

He swallows and looks away. “What if I screw this up?”

“You will.”

He rolls his eyes. “Gee, thanks, Kate. Your confidence is –“

“Everyone does.” She shrugs. “He did.”

His eyes track to her forehead against his will, and she smiles. He shakes his head, sharply. “Not his fault. Nobody blames him for…”

Still that smile. “Nobody but him. And you, just a little.”

The floor is fascinating again.

“You blame him more for leaving, though.”

He always hated that about her, the way that she could read people like book summaries. Like she was writing a review, and he wonders sometimes how many stars he would have gotten. The ice is gone, but his smile is a sharp enough distraction. “Now, why would I do a thing like that?”

She looks at him from under her eyebrows. “Don’t play dumb with me. ”

He acknowledges the hit with a softening of his lips.

“Don’t worry so much. You’ll all be his again eventually. For now, they’re yours.”

A bark of laughter catches him off guard. “That’s why I worry, Kate.” It’s easier to say with his eyes closed. “I can’t…”

Lose them, he thinks.

“...let them down,” he says.

There’s a rustle of cloth, and then a touch through his hair, the same calm, measured stroke that the boat never felt. It’s just sense memory, he knows; a playback from the quieter moments in their own little indigo world, waiting for an end that didn’t come. Not from the direction anyone expected. The tightening of his chest is all part of the recall.

“You won’t.”

He leans into the motion even as he argues. “You just said –“

It’s a tug instead of a tap, but they’re exactly the same thing. “I said you’d screw up. I didn’t say they’d let you.” The stroking returns. “Trust your team. They’re smart, and they’ve been trained by the best, and they’re used to hauling your ass out of trouble. Let them, and you’ll be fine.”

For a while it’s just her hand and the silence. He misses being touched casually. When Gibbs left, he handed over more than his badge and his job. Abby has always been the one to walk straight through the line where The Boss begins, but that was when Gibbs was The Boss, and even she looks at Tony like she's trying to find him in there. That might be his own fault, though. He hasn't figured out how to be himself and the job at the same time. He wonders, sometimes, if Gibbs ever learned the trick, or just became the job.

Finally, she pulls slowly away. He sighs and opens his eyes to find her at the bottom of the stairs, light playing over her profile. He doesn’t ask her to stay.

She turns her head back to him. “And bring Abby Darjeeling on Monday. She’s out.”

“Abby doesn’t drink tea. Not enough caffeine content.”

She shrugs. “Ducky.”

He pauses, and then nods. “Yeah. Okay.”

She watches him for a long moment, smiling mostly with her eyes. He leans his head against the table leg and closes his own. A moment later the footsteps fade from his mind.

On Monday, he brings Abby tealeaves.


Date: 2006-09-14 09:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shetiger.livejournal.com
This is lovely, and very true to the show.

Date: 2006-09-14 10:13 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] stillane.livejournal.com
Eee! You liked it? *happy dance*

I know it isn't quite what you were probably hoping for, but it wouldn't go away. I'm hoping the new season will get me inspired to play with them some more, maybe in more... playful ways. 'Cause any show with Abby can't be all doom and gloom.

Date: 2006-09-15 03:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shetiger.livejournal.com
Yes, I did like it! I like the way you brought back the talking to Kate's ghost thing when Tony's in turmoil - it makes a lot of sense after Hiatus.

'Cause any show with Abby can't be all doom and gloom.

No, it can't. :) I'm sure there'll be lots of fun stuff to play with.

BTW, can I ask a favor? [livejournal.com profile] kageygirl and I have started up [livejournal.com profile] ncis_bolo, which is supposed to be like [livejournal.com profile] sga_noticeboard for NCIS fandom. But we'd like an icebreaker post before we announce it everywhere. Would you be willing to post a link for this story over there?

Date: 2006-09-15 03:11 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] stillane.livejournal.com
Holy cow. Of course, but I think you have the favor-giving direction backward. Just let me know how you'd like me to do it - can I just join up and post? any particular format you're going for? - and I'll get it up there.

Hee. Somewhere to put it. Cool.

Date: 2006-09-15 03:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shetiger.livejournal.com
Hee! Yeah, all you have to do is join the comm to post. Then do it pretty much like you'd do for sga_noticeboard. Put something like "New ficlet - Vintage" in the subject line, and then whatever blurb you want with a link in the post. There's info in the profile, but I think them's the basics. :)

Date: 2006-09-15 03:12 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] kageygirl.livejournal.com
"Nah. He’d kick my ass." Which is a point in that plan’s favor, when he thinks about it. It’s hard to ass-kick from across the border.

"So will I. He was going to name it after me."


Oh. Oof. This hurts, but just--plainly, naturally, not wallowing or anything... okay, words are not my friends tonight, clearly, but I really liked this. Tony, and his soda... man, Very nice.

Date: 2006-09-15 04:15 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] stillane.livejournal.com
Hee. Thanks. Tony and his soda were originally Tony and his tequila, but then he got more complicated on me. The boy has a nasty habit of doing that.

Although, Weatherly and tequila could be a dangerous combination... Maybe that would be Abby's night. *g*

Date: 2006-09-15 08:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] malnpudl.livejournal.com
This is wonderful. I'm so glad you posted on [livejournal.com profile] ncis_bolo. Insightful story, and lovely writing. Such a pleasure.

Date: 2006-09-15 07:59 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] stillane.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! I had some serious new fandom jitters, and I'm all kinds of happy that you thought it passed muster. *g*

Date: 2006-09-15 11:43 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] twoweevils.livejournal.com
This was really nice. I loved the mood and the atmosphere you created. Sad, bitter, and very sweet.

M.

Date: 2006-09-21 10:41 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] stillane.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm so glad the tone came across the way I wanted it to. (Even if the whole thing has been somewhat Jossed, as predicted. *g*)

(And I love your Tony icon. I really need to acquire one of those. He really is too damned pretty, what with the serious eyes and goofy smiles.)

Date: 2006-09-17 07:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] enname.livejournal.com
See, I am glad that I told you to stop wibbling. In fact, I should have told you earlier to stop wibbling and post it because it so needs to be out and posted so that people can read.

The stories share a few key ideas, but you've used them on different characters, for different plot devices and so they have fundamentally different connotations and play out. Using Kate as a sounding board for Tony is far different from Ziva in the end because of who they are and how they related to her in the first place. Personally, I think the world needs both stories ... if nothing else for the image of Tony sitting down near the boat, drinking soda. Drinking soda whilst imagining Kate as a solace and voice of reason. Actually, it is a lot more like Grace Under Pressure in that regard. *g*

It’s just sense memory, he knows; a playback from the quieter moments in their own little indigo world, waiting for an end that didn’t come.

I love the phrase and idea of an indigo little world. Love it.

Hey look, you made me read two things in another fandom. Two!

Date: 2006-09-21 11:15 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] stillane.livejournal.com
Actually, it is a lot more like Grace Under Pressure in that regard.

You know, I totally hadn't thought of that comparison. Huh. The funny thing is, I could really see Tony and John getting along well. They both do the humor-as-cover-for-depth thing. Also, they both have big man crushes on their (occasionally) crabby coworkers. (Although in Tony's case it's his boss, which would make the parallel be more John/Caldwell... or John/Elizabeth, and we're not going to go there.)

the image of Tony sitting down near the boat, drinking soda

The truly sad thing is, I've even though about the type of soda. I'm leaning toward Coke, because it's dark enough to have a little bite, and still contains a pretty decent serving of caffeine. Plus, it's high on sugar, which would be a big plus in the Tony department. Where Abby loves her caffeine above all, Tony+sugar=OTP.

As for the indigo world... I can't really take credit for the idea. Do you watch this one regularly? Just in case not, there's this one episode where they spend a lot of time in a hospital, and it just may be the biggest Tony h/c fest ever. Seriously. There are tears, and threatenings of innocent scientists at gunpoint, and big drama moments. And a good deal of it is shot under this blue lighting that makes it all surreal and strange and pretty. So much love.

Hey look, you made me read two things in another fandom. Two!

Score! *does the elbow pull of triumph* Hee.

Date: 2006-09-22 07:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] enname.livejournal.com
Just in case not, there's this one episode where they spend a lot of time in a hospital, and it just may be the biggest Tony h/c fest ever.

Yes, I have seen that episode and it is actually one of my favourites for the very reason you just outlined. Dammit, but I still like your line because you noticed it and wove it in and made it all pretty. So bah!

*g* He is a sugar boy, through and through. Some of the stuff he eats is all about the sugar, even though on the surface it is the meat. Coke also has that coolness edge still that so many other's don't. That elegance, which I think would appeal tto him nicely on a superficial level.

Please don't go down the commander relationship line for SGA. *shudder* Although there is that one John/Caldwell, that ends up J/R as well which is kinda neat.. *cough* Anyway. They also have that goof factor that would kind of take away any edges from John being the grouchiest person under any galactic sun. They could also go do manly sports bonding together. Tony could be somewhat shocked at the aggressiveness of John's scientists. :)

Date: 2006-09-24 07:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ex-nilahasi174.livejournal.com
This is just wonderful. So lovely, and melancholy, and careful. I'm aching for Kate all over again. I love the kind of almost romance here, and Tony's written so well that you can really feel all the turmoil he's going through. The last few lines are beautiful.

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